Conflicted

I know what I am suppose to do. I new before I did anything what I was in for and sure enough all of my expectations have been realized.

Am I that desperate that I am compromising myself in order to keep these few moments of happiness?

I guess so. Eventually something is going to wake me up, and get me out of it. Maybe there is a chance that things will get better once I am able to accomplish my goals. But if not, I am sure I will figure something out.

Here's to hope I guess...